Feeling Anxious

Hey everyone,

Today’s blog post is about how I’ve been feeling for about a year and a half and how I’ve been acting as a result of this feeling.I’m writing this post because maybe someone who reads this will be feeling the same way and then we can relate to each other and you’ll know your not alone and then I’ll know I’m not alone.So now lets talk about what I’ve been feeling.

So as you can guess from the title,I’ve been very anxious for about a year and a half now and I know everyone feels anxious sometimes and that’s normal,but it’s not just the occasional time that I feel like this.I get this feeling quite often even when I’m not doing anything.It also stops me from doing things and going places.Sometimes when my friends invite me to their house I make up excuses about why I can’t go just because it makes me feel anxious and scared even though I know that there’s no reason to feel like that with my friends but I can’t help but overthink it and then feel anxious about it.In classes if a teacher asks me for an answer to a question and if I have the correct answer written down I will tell them that I don’t know rather than read my answer out loud.I used to make Youtube videos but I stopped and deleted them because it made me feel too anxious.I was meant to be going on a Ski Trip to Italy with school but the thought of that made me want to cry because it scared me so much so I decided not to go.My best friend always invites me to go to her house,to go bowling,to go shopping,to go to the cinema but the majority of the time I come up with excuses not to go because the idea of it makes me feel so anxious.

My friends invited me out for a meal one time but the thought of it made me feel so anxious and panicky that I just said no and made up another excuse.This then leaves me feeling excluded and a bit upset even though I’m the one that excluded myself because of this anxious feeling that just follows me around.I also feel bad because whenever my friends or best friend try to make plans with me I almost always make up an excuse about why I can’t go.I don’t like to tell my friends that I feel anxious about going places and doing new things because they probably wouldn’t understand,I don’t even understand why going out for food makes me feel anxious or why going to my best friends house makes me feel anxious.

I get the bus to school and sometimes I feel so scared at the thought of having to walk from the door of my house to the gate where the bus collects me (literally a 30 second walk).It probably sounds so stupid to you but it’s true getting on a little bus scares me.I think it’s the idea of being on a bus with a lot of people that stresses me out more than the actual bus itself.

Feeling anxious about trying new things and going certain places has stopped me doing things that I do want to do but am too scared even though I know that nothing bad would probably happen.I don’t know if I’ve explained this very well so I’m sorry if this has left you confused but to be honest it is confusing.I wish that I could be like other people and not feel anxious when having to do something as simple as go into a shop and buy something but I’m not because even that scares me.The thought of ordering food in a restaurant scares me so much so I hate eating out.

I don’t actually know why I feel like this,It started about a year and a half ago.I haven’t gone to a doctor about it because I don’t know if I should or not.I would love to know if any of you who read this feel like this or are going through something like this.Maybe this isn’t even a big deal,maybe this is normal but either way I wanted to write a post about a feeling that I’ve been feeling for a while.(Sorry this post was so long!)

If you don’t want to reply to this publicly in the comments you can Email me:Ciaratone@hotmail.com
Or contact me on Instagram me:DayDreamerCiara

Thanks for reading,
Ciara X

26 Comments

  1. September 29, 2016 / 4:51 pm

    I sometimes feel really anxious and to the point where doing some of my favourite things like going shopping really stresses me out

    • September 29, 2016 / 5:00 pm

      I know how you feel I often feel stressed in shops and sometimes I feel to anxious to go to the check out to even pay for something.Don’t worry you’re not alone

      • Cary's
        September 30, 2016 / 6:55 am

        Hi ciara don’t worry about this things always get better have you told your mum if you haven’t maybe break it to her about the way your feeling and then seek a doctor if you ever need support we are always here for you x

        • September 30, 2016 / 2:48 pm

          That’s really kind of you,thank you 💛

      • Carys
        September 30, 2016 / 8:25 pm

        Your so welcome Honey X 😘

  2. Rhianne
    September 29, 2016 / 5:56 pm

    i get this a lot and ive watched so many videos on anxitey and what it is and i think ive got it. i try to tell people about ot but when it comes to actually telling them i get to scared and dont say anything. i feel the same way u do about buses and idk y i get that feeling like everyones judging my every move when i know in my head that they arent but it still doesnt stop the feeling. and in resturants i only get the main course cuz i dont want people to think im greedy. Then i dont finish everything, then i worry that they will think im rude cuz i didnt finish it…idk its weird lol😂 soz that this was so long btw u can always talk 2 me over insta we aint spoke 4 looooong ly💖

    • September 29, 2016 / 6:09 pm

      Don’t worry I understand how you feel,you can Dm me on Instagram if you want to talk & thanks for sharing💛

  3. September 30, 2016 / 9:41 pm

    I feel really anxious about the way I look. One of my ‘friends’ said that you could play connect the dots on my face because of my face it’s taken a toll on me. I feel anxious around my friends to. I’ve only told one of my closest friends and things are good but I don’t know how to get over it. I try listen to music but it doesn’t work anymore and you can always DM me for a chat because then we can understand each other xx

    • September 30, 2016 / 10:00 pm

      I also feel like this sometimes,I think it’s important to surround yourself with people who make you feel good about yourself and who make you laugh so then your not always over thinking things.I over think things a lot and then put myself in a bad mood.I like to be around my family and close friends or sometimes if I’m too anxious to be with my friends I simply be by myself and watch tv,write blog posts,take pictures,walk my dog.Basically do things that make you feel happy to take your mind off over thinking.I know it’s easier said than done and not everyone has good days but if you want someone to talk to them you can always come to my blog 🙂

      • September 30, 2016 / 10:03 pm

        Thanks so much I’ve got a friend coming over to stay tommrow then we are going out with my other friend and they both know about this whole thing so I can talk to them about it and thanks for everything xxx

        • September 30, 2016 / 10:30 pm

          That’s good that your friends understand,atleast you can talk to them about it x

          • September 30, 2016 / 10:35 pm

            yes its really good especially when you don’t have to keep things bottled up x

          • September 30, 2016 / 11:06 pm

            Yeah you shouldn’t keep things bottled up,it will only make things worse in the long run X

          • September 30, 2016 / 11:10 pm

            Yes I know all about that👌🏼

          • October 1, 2016 / 4:43 pm

            Another question, where abouts in Ireland do you come from I come from donagal xx

  4. September 30, 2016 / 9:45 pm

    I get really anxious when I’m around friends and when I’m out and I get comments on my face because I have quite a lot of spots and it really upsets me. I have this really close friend he’s a boy and he always seems to help me when I’m upset about something but I can’t always rely on him for help I need to do something. And u can also DM me on Instagram for a chat because then we can understand each other and we can help each other X insta: carysforever

    • September 30, 2016 / 9:57 pm

      I understand that because lately I’ve got a mini break out on my forehead but that’s totally natural,everyone I know has gotten spots before or has some now.It’s part of life and it can’t be avoided.I feel self conscious about my spots a lot of the time but then I have to remind myself that I’m not the only one that gets them so don’t worry too much and remember your not alone 🙂

      • September 30, 2016 / 10:01 pm

        Thanks so much, remember if you ever need a chat about anything then open that insta and I’ll be there and ready to have a chat xx❤️😘❤️

        • September 30, 2016 / 10:04 pm

          That’s really kind of you,likewise you can also insta me if you ever need to 🙂 X

          • September 30, 2016 / 10:06 pm

            Thanks so much X I was wondering does it cost money to run a blog X ❤️

          • September 30, 2016 / 10:09 pm

            There are different plans you can choose from and every blogging site is different so I can’t speak for all of them but I personally don’t pay anything x

          • September 30, 2016 / 10:10 pm

            Okay thanks I’m gonna start to try blogging and see how it works out, I’m gonna be totally me thanks for everything 😘

          • September 30, 2016 / 10:12 pm

            Being you is the best thing you can be,Have fun 🙂

  5. October 1, 2016 / 4:42 pm

    Another question, where abouts in Ireland are u from I come from donagal x

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